This morning was my postpartum appointment. The doctor in Seattle told me that I needed to be seen about 4 weeks after my delivery rather than the normal 6 weeks. I think they want to make sure that I am healing both physically and emotionally. I am hoping to get some answers today. Not all of the answers have to do with why Emily was born early, but also a few other things.
Today was harder than I thought it was going to be. Driving to the clinic, sitting in the waiting room, and even being in the exam room were hard. I tried not to think about the fact that the last time I had done all these things I was still pregnant. Our doctor was very understanding and tried to answer all the questions that we had.
I learned that our local hospital does indeed have an organization that supports famlies that have lost a baby. Hopefully in the next week or so I will get a call from one of the nurses that works with the organization. I am thankful that our hospital does ensure that memories are preserved for the families that suffer a loss.
We also talked about possible causes that led to the placental abruption. I had blood drawn and they are going to check for several blood disorders to see if you have any of them. In some ways I actually hope that one test comes back positive becuase then at least we would have a medical reason for why we lost Emily so early. I have not really thought about how I will react if they all come back negative and there is no medical reason for what happened. I will cross that bridge if we come to it.
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