I feel like I have not been writing much lately, I think sometimes life gets in the way and the best of intentions seems to fall away as life moves on.
Life has been so crazy for us the last few weeks. My husband started a new job, and there has been a lot of adjustment since his work hours are a lot longer than we have been used to in the last several years. This adjustment has also included changing Maddie's bedtime, which has not been very successful. I have been trying to keep her up later so that she can spend time with daddy when he gets home from work. Our hope was that she would then sleep in a bit in the morning. Well the opposite happened, she now goes to bed at 9pm and gets up at 5am. So we are planning on changing her schedule back to early bed time. I sure hope it helps.
We have also started potty training. We have a good day and then a not so good day, but I have decided to take a casual approach on potty training so if she goes it is great and we celebrate, but if she has an accident we just change and move on with our day. She is not even 2 1/2 yet, so I think she is doing just fine. It also helps me to be more casual since I was just getting frustrated with all the accidents.
While life continues to move on and I have to move on with it, there are times that I wish time could freeze for just stay in the moment. As time moves on I get further away from Emily. It has now been 5 months since we said goodbye. It was late in the day on June 26th that I even slowed down enough to remember it was 5 months ago that we hello and goodbye to Emily. I have days like that now, that I am so busy going here and there and caring for a toddler, my husband, the house, and myself that I realize I have go through the whole day and not thought about Emily. And that really makes me sad. I don't ever want to forget her. I know I won't forget her, but as time goes on it is harder to remember sometimes.
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