The Last Few Weeks

I want to start out by saying thank you to all of those who commented on my previous post about my decisions regarding this blog and the direction I am going to take with it, both now and in the future. It meant a lot to me and I am even more confident in my decision.

It was because of the decision process and of course life that has limited the posts in the past few weeks. I wish I could say that I have a back-log of posts, but sadly I have not written much in the past few weeks. Since my last doctor's appointment my stress level has been a lot less and I have been doing fairly well.

I was looking back and realized the last time I wrote about the pregnancy was when I was 12 weeks along. I am now 15 weeks pregnant. I am really going to try and keep up on this for the rest of the pregnancy. I want to be able to look back and see where I was in the process.

So here is a quick recap. My doctor's appointment on August 9th went great. Dr. P walked in the exam room and asked me how I was, to which I replied "a nervous wreck." I told him why and before he did anything else he checked the baby's heartbeat with the Doppler (150 bpm). Such a relief to hear that tiny heart. He also shared with me part of his plan for the next few months, one of which is to start to check my cervical length, next appointment. I am so happy with his decisions and the course of treatment right now. My next appointment will be on September 1st.

This week, week 15, for me is an important week. This is the week I started spotting with Emily. So far this week looks good. I am pleased to say I have not had any spotting yet during this pregnancy, which is such a relief. Now on to 21 weeks, where we will have the anatomy scan and find out if we are having a boy or girl. Both my husband and I are pretty sure we are having a girl, but then I was convinced that our first was going to be a boy and we ended up having a girl. So my intuition has been off before, BUT I do have a 50/50 chance of being right. So we will see. We would be fine with either one.

Emotionally
My emotional state the last few weeks has been pretty good. I know that there is a little part of me that is still in denial that I am actually pregnant again. On September 9th, it will have been a year since I found out I was pregnant with Emily, so with the exception of about 4 months I have been pregnant for almost a year. That is a long time to be pregnant and not have a baby in our arms.

It was only this week that I finally broke down and started wearing maternity shirts. That was a huge step for me, to finally acknowledge that I am getting bigger and the baby is growing, and things are going well. I think I can finally start to be excited for this pregnancy. Don't get me wrong I am excited, it is just a different excitement up to this point.

Physically
I am getting a tummy, and I love it, but I seem to be getting so much bigger, so much sooner. I am still super tired, to the point where I still need a nap each day or I fall asleep on the couch in the evening. But it is slowly getting better. I hopefully soon I will make it through a day without a nap.

I get sick occasionally, but more now than in the first three months. This I know is due to low blood sugar in the mornings. So if I make sure to eat often I am okay, but if I go too long between eating I tend to get sick. At least I know what triggers it, and most of the time I can prevent it.

I know I have felt the baby move a few times, but it is only once in a while right now. I can't wait to feel this little one move more often. I think that is one for my favorite parts of being pregnant.